I'm 19 years old, turned 19 on the 7th. Mentally I am about 9 years old - At least, that is what I tell myself.

I take several pills, I don't know what I'm going to do when I graduate, and I have virtually no friends. I'd say these are pretty common Western middle-class phenomena.
But how can I be sure?

I'm just typing nonsense.

I should pack, because I am leaving. I am not here during the working week. During the working week, I am mentally dying. So bored, I end up doing tedious average things. Undesirable things. Things that have to be done. 2 pills a day.

Then when I get home I am a underfed vessel of frustration, waiting to implode. More pills are consumed. Few eruptions have taken place. But still, too many. At night all is better.

In the morning, everything seems worse.